Have you ever?
There’s this song that whenever it plays, it burns my soul and I feel like I can’t escape. I am crushed. It’s on right now. Bummer. Damnit. Oh well. It was good, wasn’t it? I like to make myself believe things that aren’t true a majority of the time. That way, I don’t have to face life. “Sugar we’re goin’ down” is what it’s called. And I wish it would die, but it’s a good song, just burns the soul. I guess the whole morality of goodness was not really as good as it sounded because up till that point, I had never been hurt deeply before. But 20 years from now, when this damn song comes on, burning rage will fill me. This isn’t always bad, because last time I was able to do superhuman weight lifting, which was tight. Ryan, remember when I did like a million ablique things on that machine? It was the song’s power over me. I submit. I’m a slave. I need to cope with tragedy a lot less and move on to more better a lot more. 😉
Phew, it’s finally over.
A thought is this, I enjoy my family. I enjoy pretty much everything in life. The only scar I have is this song, a bowling incident. Alright, time to recap on the most influential things in my life. In other words, these are the things that if I remember them late at night, i’m screwed cause I start raging with passion and I can’t sleep for a few hours.
1. Sugar we’re going down swingin -First womanfriend, GAH!
2. Bowling incident, aka bowling as hard as I could down to the railing
3. Crashing my dad’s convertable
4. Things with Jacob Carnick, he is gone now.
Noticably, it’s the things that are in slow motion and you know you can’t avoid after you have started that drive me crazy. It’s sort of like those problems on tests that you know the answers and fill in the wrong bubble. Damn, I hate that shit.
There are things that have always been good to me though.
Except for today, Weight lifting has been good for me, I dry heaved a few times today, haha, and then I was fine, talk about weird. Matt Ridenour is always good, same with the Mcgann Man who’s going to hawaii, making the girls say aiii ;-), Jim Barrett, all 3 great guys, Ryan Smith, definately. I have met a lot of great people basically. These are only 4 and I am sure that in an hour I will remember more, but as for now, i’m back to autocad